Full moon feelings
reflections, ritual, letting go of linear time some more...
It has taken around 10 years for my life to feel closely attuned to the lunar cycle. I can feel her shifts at a micro level now, and the full and new moons so clearly. I don’t need to look at a calendar, or google it.
That feels exciting, because I have re-trained my whole self to remember what it is like to live in rythmn with a force of nature, not numbers on a page, but the pull of a cosmic force.
Not human-made clocks, but my body clock. The ‘body clock’ of the universe.
It begins with reading about or listening to what others have to say about their experiences.
Writing down in my journal where the moon is in her cycle, and where I am in mine.
Pulling a card a day for the whole of the lunar cycle. This deck was transformative for me.
Noticing the moon in the sky, and speaking to her. (Don’t tell me you don’t do this).
As Mary Oliver writes in Praying:
It doesn’t have to be
the blue iris, it could be
weeds in a vacant lot, or a few
small stones; just
pay attention, then patch
a few words together and don’t try
to make them elaborate, this isn’t
a contest but the doorway
into thanks, and a silence in which
another voice may speak.
Feeling how it feels to be affected by lunar energy - sometimes it’s obvious, sometimes subtler. The full moon at Samhain 2021 is forever etched on my womb as I spent it in a static caravan with a WILD storm raging, a painful bleed arriving early, and pretty much zero sleep all night. OBVIOUS.
Changing my behaviours in response to where the sun, moon and planets are. Changing my daily habits, rituals, rhythms and work. The things I do and don’t do. The ways I move, wash, eat, dress, the music and podcasts I listen to. What I read, who I spend time with… EMBODIED.
Over time, with intention, repetition and sharing with others, I can now confidently say that all of these different ways of connecting to the moon have become embodied.
By this I mean, I don’t have to have the thought process - if it’s the full moon then how should I act? - I am already there. Sensing my way there. Intuiting my way to a response.
Understanding the astrological archetypes, how they change and flow through the year, the balance between the sun season and the moon season adds another layer.
That took a few years to embody too!
And the best bit? It is always new. Each month another layer.
I love to learn. For the first 20 years of my life, I dedicated myself to intellectual learning. That’s still there, but feeling new understandings in the body is something I feel so grateful for. It means that I’m no longer only showing up with a collection of ideas to discuss, I’m showing up with some knowings to share. May this deepen and widen for the next 20 years.
The full moon is a peak. An ovulation point. An orgasm. A pause … with potency.
Do you know how that feels?
Where do you feel that in your body? Your breath?
Come a little deeper with Freyja Astrology and I as we share our perspectives on this full moon in Libra - an exploration of Venus and her themes, how this relates to our cycle connection and menstrual health, and some rituals to connect with our body’s wisdom.
